ARGH!!! i got to get this off my chest before i wolf down another packet of biscuits!!! (okay.. i eat when i'm stressed...) okay.. here it goes...

I am now trying to study maths and argh... i can't seem to do any of the questions... all that i can think of are flashbacks of my previous maths teachers and the exasperated looks on their faces when they tried to explain to me a certain maths formula for the nth time.. argh... i remember all the horrible days of maths remedial lessons after school... and my sec 1-2 maths teacher calling my name distantly during math class: miss tay? miss tay? are you in day dream land again? and the whole class burst out laughing... sigh! i don't know why am i such a sucker for maths... i always hover below passing marks since... like.. secondary 1.... and yes.. the only time that i actually score well for maths is when we do the graphs topic... sigh... i love graphs.. and i absolutely loathe algebra... argh!!! i think.. i know what is the root of my maths problem ready... firstly... i hate the subject... i don't want to see it or touch it or hear it.... secondly... i'm lazy.. i don't like to practice the maths questions... and even if i do... i only practice the day before the exams.. argh!!!! no!!! i'm like.. slowing killing myself with this hate maths thing... and if i don't start loving physical chemistry soon... it could end up like my maths.. argh!!!! okay.. from now on.. MATHS ROCK!!!! *coughs violently* erm.. this may take some time... but yeah.. and I LOVE PHYCHEM!!! *starts to froth at mouth* okay.. er... yeah.. this is like deceiving myself... argh!! what to do?!?!?!?!?! gah!!!! i shall deal with this after the exams.... hope it won't be too late though... but at least... i'm starting to do something about this math problem..........

Labels: maths allergy, maths phobia