mummy flew this morning.. miss her already... dinner was unusually quiet without her nagging.... i never thought that the day i miss her nagging would come... even daddy is like... super silent... and oh.. i think i better go dry the dishes... sign.... so many things to do.. protein tech report, resume, molecular genetics e prac report (the stupid fly one..) next friday also have molgen presentation... and next saturday have performance at city square or something... and tomorrow have like double piano lessons or something... haiz.. okay... to the dishes!!!

Labels: random stuff

mum's flying to china tomorrow... will miss her i guess... hope the house won't become too chaotic while she's gone....

wanted to play piano just now.. but kena scolded by my sister because she wanted to watch tv... wth lah... stupid variety shows... total waste of time....

I WANT TO PLAY THE PIANO RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sign... i'll go listen to music instead... but it's like.. my hand itches....

Labels: china, nyp piano ensemble, random

everything is okay now...
thanks to those who gave me advice and supported me....
really love you guys/girls loads!!! :)

Labels: random stuff

funerals... especially chinese ones... are... really... draining and tiring..... with late nights and early mornings..... and non stop folding of the 'jin zhi'....

Labels: tired

people and things only seem precious after you lose them... currently addicted to this song called On your Mind ~ Please come back to me~

just kind of suits how i feel now.... non stop listening to it.... KAT TUN rocks!!






Lyrics taken from http://community.livejournal.com/kattunlove/4527735.html


KANJI

あたりまえに　君がいたね
大切だと　言えずにいた　近すぎて

君はいつも　何かいつも
言おうとして　黙りこんで　うつむいたね

Please Come Back To Me
あの頃はもう　帰らない
あんな好きな人にもう出会えない

I Can't Forget You
君は誰に抱かれて
今日眠りにつくの？
まだ　愛しくて

久しぶり　仲間達と
同じ顔　同じ場所
でも一つ　君がいない

Please Come Back To Me
あの頃はもう　帰らない
あんな眩しい季節二度とないよ

I Can't Forget You
君は誰に抱かれて
今日眠りにつくの？
何を祈りながら？

あの駅　あのホーム
君を見た気がした

Please Come Back To Me
あの頃はもう　帰らない
あんな好きな人にもう出会えない


I Can't Forget You
君は誰に抱かれて
今日眠りにつくの？
まだ　恋しくて

突然だけど、梅酒飲みたいなぁぁ。


ROMAJI
Atarimae ni, kimi ga ita ne
Taisetsu da to iezuni ita, chikasugite

Kimi wa itsumo, nanika itsumo
Iou toshite damarikonde utsumoitane


Please come back to me
Ano koro wa mou, kaeranai
Anna suki na hito ni mou deaenai

I can’t forget you
Kimi wa dare ni dakarete
Kyou nemuri ni tsuku no?
Mada itoshikute


Hisashiburi nakamatachi to
Onaji kao, onaji basho
Demo hitotsu, kimi ga inai

Please come back to me
Ano koro wa mou, kaeranai
Anna mabushii kisetsu nido to nai yo

I can’t forget you
Kimi wa dare ni dakarete
Kyou nemuri ni tsuku no?
Nani o inori nagara?

Ano eki, ano hoomu
Kimi wo mita ki ga shita

Please come back to me
Ano koro wa mou, kaeranai
Anna suki na hito ni mou deaenai

I can’t forget you
Kimi wa dare ni dakarete
Kyou nemuri ni tsuku no?
Mada koishikute




ENGLISH

Like you were meant to, you were there
You were too close, and I never told you that you’re important, yet you were there

Always, when you are about to say something,
you sink into silence and cast your eyes downwards

Please come back to me
That time will no longer come back
Can no longer find another to love as much

I can’t forget you
Who are you being held by as you fall asleep tonight?
Still, you are dear to me

It has been a long time since I am with my friends
The same faces, the same place
But one thing, you are not here

Please come back to me
That time will no longer come back
A season that dazzling will not appear a second time

I can’t forget you
Who are you being held by as you fall asleep tonight?
And what would you be praying for?

That station, that platform
I have a feeling that I saw you

Please come back to me
That time will no longer come back
Can no longer find another to love as much

I can’t forget you
Who are you being held by as you fall asleep tonight?
Still, I am in love with you

okay... in short... my whole life is a mess...

firstly... i pissed off my cca friends... i don't even know if they still see me as a friend...

secondly, my studies are like @%#(&!#&!^!@#!+)@= CRAP...

thirdly, my grandmother has passed on....

end of story... life is really rock bottom now...

i really don't know what to do now... it's all my own fault for digging my own grave....

Labels: ...

cried for the first time in a very long time today....

stress....
pain...
discomfort...
sadness...
frustration....
awkwardness....
silence....
guilt....
loneliness...
disappointment....

all these negative feelings just.... burst out of their container suddenly....

cried, walked, talked, glared at the fb people when they stared....

really really tired.... seriously need a break from all these....

need to clear up stuffs in my head....

sigh....

okay... for now... sleep... tomorrow still need to chiong tutorial and report....

Labels: stress

I guess... I made a stupid mistake.... Well, actually two stupid mistakes.... and I don't think I will be forgiven so soon...

Lately, I've been doing stupid immature things and argh!!!! I really don't know....

Sometimes I really hate myself.....

And I wish I didn't have any emotions....

Labels: mistakes

I am in love with an anime character because real guys suck...
sorry guys (who are really nice) blame your friends for being such assholes....

protein tech, medical microbiology, molecular genetics reports due next week!!!!!!
need to do video for molgen blog as well.....
piano theory homework... i'm sick of composing music!!!
presentation on week 7....
practice bizet songs... shit... no viola now...
pack my study table....
it's going to be a hectic weekend.....
i need more time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
RAWR!!!!!!!!!!!!! time is passing too fast!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Labels: busy

well... a hectic week as usual... rehearsals galore... and the concert was a success i think... so i met new friends... had surprises from old friends... alot happened... it's just too much for my brain to process now... argh.... stress level is at 120%.... a few reports due in week 4.... shit.. haven't started at all due to rehearsals..... project due in week 5... more reports due on week 5... presentation in week 7... chamber orchestra on december 4th... STRESSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!

I want 48 hours a day....

RAWR!!!!! damn stress lah....

I didn't even have time to catch bleach, faiy tail and fma this week....

had a rather long talk with meiz... love you meiz... *hugs* and JIA YOU FOR YOUR REMAINING PAPERS!!!!!

and i miss zx and natoz... wish i could talk to them now!!!!! but they are going to start A lvls soon... JIA YOU FOR YOUR A LEVELS MY DARLINGS!!!!

ps: it is week 3 now.. so week 4 is like next monday... i'm so dead.... i need more sleep... really...

Labels: stress, strings concert

i need more time!!!! i want 48 hours a day!!!

bus rides are comforting....

chocolate.....

blankie.... sleep.... pillow.....

skip beat update in december..... why?!?!

i'm old... i'm nearing my last year as a teenager.....

i love you lappy.....

i need to cut my nails... *stares*

okay bye... i'm going to cut my nails...