hey bloggie.. a lot has been happening lately.... school work.. due assignments.... clique problems.... piano exams.... personal problems.. etc... haiz.. really can't take it..... luckily.. no more cca until march... i could really do with a break... and most of the assignments are almost done.. just need some cleaning up here and there... so should be able to finish and hand up.... now what's left is exams and clique problems.... okay... it's weird to talk about clique problems here... so i shall not elaborate anymore....

exams... exams.... what to do? biostats... is like total shit... biochem and cell bio too.... microb and orgchem are still okay.... how how? and personal problems are such shitheads..... really don't know what to do... should i just pretend the problem is not there? should i just get over it.. argh... i really don't know..... i seriously think too much... and when i think too much... i see a whole new set of problems and i start worrying all over again... argh.... why.... why.... i don't know.... it's so stupid.... i'm like repeating the same mistakes from the past.... by ignoring the problem.... it becomes worse.... but... i really don't have the courage to face up to it..... i'm afraid... wait... more of unsure.... argh... dunno lah!!! stupid stupid idiot!!!! why am i still thinking about people from the past!!! argh...... idiot... why am i thinking of you...... i don't know... maybe because i'm an idiot too.... yes.... i'm an idiot.... an idiot to wait for more than half a decade for you... an idiot who doesn't realise that we might be too different now... an idiot to keep clinging onto her first love.. argh... this is crap... i can't believe it... now i'm actually blogging about that asshole.. argh... stupid.... forget it... argh.... i'm going to drown myself in homework!!!!!! bye bloggie.... i won't be blogging much until exams are over....

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had pizza party yesterday at strings room.. hahaha.. and it was really fun.... we even played musical chairs!!! hahaha.. yes.. it was ages since i played musical chairs.... and it was really funny... i think the whole musical chair game was video taped... so... I'm expecting to see it on facebook soon.... yepps.. and well... we are so called obsessed with the old song by theresa teng called the moon represents my heart... apparently... this song became a hit among the strings people after we sang/dance/rapped/beat boxed it to LB at the dressing room during esplanade performance.... hahaha.. yepps... was like playing and playing it on the piano.... and adele played it on the cello and she's really really good!!! hahaha.. now... the viola people and cello people are all obsessed with it....

yepps.. after the pizza party... most of the people went back... and oh oh!!! we did a thank you LB dance... hahahaha.. it was crazy... but it was so hilarious!!!! yepps.. back to the people went home part.... left me, jolinna, charlene, adele, ridwan, joshua, and andrew to clean up the place... we arranged the chairs... and adele later left... after that... hahaha.. it was super funny again... because we tried to vacuum the floor with the vacuum cleaner.. and we tried to clear the dust bag in the vacuum cleaner... man.. it was super gross okay... hahaha.. when we opened it... we saw this big, grey, dusty silverfish crawling happily among all the dust, hair etc etc.... hahaha.. we all jumped away from the vacuum cleaner.... yepps.. after that... the guys except joshua went to clear the dust bag.. and then the vacuuming so called started... after vacuuming... we went to buy drinks from the vending machine... and we all sat down and started to played erm.. word games? or the so called trick games... like the fuzzy wuzzy game... hahaha.. damn funny.... jolinna.... hahahaha.... she took damn long to guess.. and joshua was like writing out fuzzy wuzzy likes to lOOk and he don't like to stare.... hahaha... after some time.. jolinna finally got it.... hahaha.. super funny... later.. all of us walked to yck mrt together and dad and mum picked me up at braddell.. went home.. showered... listened to music until 12.30am and then went to sleep....

argh.. i should stop the listening to music habit.... i tell myself.. one more song... or repeat one more time... and i just waste my sleeping time listening to music.... argh... but it really is very nice to listen to music especially classical... because you can imagine the orchestra and the violin solos are super nice... and ohoh!!! i love cello solo parts.. they are very touching... somehow... and i realise that i don't listen to piano much now.... O.o

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hooray!! it's finally over.... it was kind of a success i guess... pretty cool... had a great time with cca mates.. we sang, we danced... we were absolutely crazy in the dressing rooms... yay!! i can go back to playing the violin now!!! but i'm kind of sad about leaving the viola.. maybe i should stay.. but argh.. i really don't know... i'm stuck.. lost.. confused... viola or violin? viola or violin? just really really confused lah!!! i miss my violin... but viola is soooo nice!!!! but i bought my violin already and it's such a waste!!! but then again... the viola is kind of huge and bulky and i'm a small sized person so maybe i'm better off with the violin.. ohoh.. and i'm going to stop piano lessons... i really have no time... after getting grade 6 i'll stop... haiz.. very sad.. very wasted.. but life's like that... i should have learnt when i was younger.... now very very busy.... and it's really really sad too.... yepps yepps.. that's about all.... and i won't be blogging much for the next month or so due to upcoming examinations... i must raise my gpa to 3.5!!!! and i must also find a job in the holidays and earn some money.... hopefully... i can buy a viola or something or have lessons or something.... yepps... that's all... bye people!!!

Labels: sinfonia 2009

okay.. weekly summary...

monday, 5th jan...
played a fanfare for mm lee kuan yew when he came to our school... very stress... because it was a new piece and i just got the score.... and i think we sounded bad because the atrium has alot of echo... :(

tuesday, 6th jan...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MMMMMMEEEEEEE!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!
yes.. i turned 18... i feel old..... and thank you once again to everyone who wished me happy birthday...

wednesday, 7th jan
had strings practice with luo biao.... played intermezzo and young prince and princess non stop!!! played until i had blisters on my finger.... now i have to pluck the strings with my middle finger and it's bloody difficult!!!

thursday, 8th jan...
had open house duties.... very slack.... went for open house performance.... played intermezzo and young prince and princess.... blister is swelling like mad...... went for another practice from 6-9pm.. combined with band and voice ensemble... i have to practice those two horrible songs.... the power of the dream and when you believe... trust me... it suddenly transposes to 4 sharps or 5 flats and it's a really major headache.....

friday, 9th jan....
had open house duties (again).. led the group from mayflower secondary.. they are very mischieveious... went to strings room after that... practice a little... later went to atrium and waited for the performance... played finale symphony no2 by tchiavosky and orpheus in the underworld by offenbach.... i screwed up...... argh.. need to work on those two songs as well... argh.. stress!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sinfonia '09 is in 9 days... i have to practice like mad to make it happen....... i can do it!!!!!!!!

anyway... i just realised that my whole life revolves around symphony orchestra.... i seem to see my cca friends more then my classmates nowadays.... and i really like this cca... it's stressful and everything... but it's very rewarding and best of all... we are a little family... well.. sort of.... violin 3 and cello seem quite close.... yepps.. at any rate... STRING ENSEMBLE ROCKS!!!!!!!!!!! (just that we need more practice!!) vivi, lala, lolo, baba..... hahahaha.....

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yay!!! happy belated birthday to me!!! and i would like to thank all the people who wished me happy birthday.. thank you once again everyone!!!! *bows*

a few special credits to:

natalie and zheng xiang - thank you for conference calling me during my last few hours of being seventeen..... thank you for the customised t-shirt.... thank you for the birthday blog posts... thank you for being there for me for the last 5 + (and counting) years..... thank you for nagging at me.. for encouraging me... and many other little things.... i'm really happy to have good friends like you..... *big hug!!!* i think you two are the best presents ever!!! :)


hy, kh, pam and last but not least, SJA!! - thank you for the really sweet presents!!! the puzzle was fun and i really appreciate the time and effort you all took to put my present together.... thank you for everything!!! you guys are the reason why poly is fun!! oh.. and thank you keith for the birthday card msg too! :)

alssya and yiqi who sent me b'day messages via face book and sms respectively.... thank you!! :)

classmates from mb0801 who wished me happy birthday... thank you eveyone!!! :)

and not forgetting darling cousin mx!!!! thank you for the birthday msg!!! and don't worry too much about my present okay? just get good results for your o levels.. it will be the best present!!! XD

yepps... that's about all i think... i hope i didn't miss out anyone... :p

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