hey bloggie.. a lot has been happening lately.... school work.. due assignments.... clique problems.... piano exams.... personal problems.. etc... haiz.. really can't take it..... luckily.. no more cca until march... i could really do with a break... and most of the assignments are almost done.. just need some cleaning up here and there... so should be able to finish and hand up.... now what's left is exams and clique problems.... okay... it's weird to talk about clique problems here... so i shall not elaborate anymore....

exams... exams.... what to do? biostats... is like total shit... biochem and cell bio too.... microb and orgchem are still okay.... how how? and personal problems are such shitheads..... really don't know what to do... should i just pretend the problem is not there? should i just get over it.. argh... i really don't know..... i seriously think too much... and when i think too much... i see a whole new set of problems and i start worrying all over again... argh.... why.... why.... i don't know.... it's so stupid.... i'm like repeating the same mistakes from the past.... by ignoring the problem.... it becomes worse.... but... i really don't have the courage to face up to it..... i'm afraid... wait... more of unsure.... argh... dunno lah!!! stupid stupid idiot!!!! why am i still thinking about people from the past!!! argh...... idiot... why am i thinking of you...... i don't know... maybe because i'm an idiot too.... yes.... i'm an idiot.... an idiot to wait for more than half a decade for you... an idiot who doesn't realise that we might be too different now... an idiot to keep clinging onto her first love.. argh... this is crap... i can't believe it... now i'm actually blogging about that asshole.. argh... stupid.... forget it... argh.... i'm going to drown myself in homework!!!!!! bye bloggie.... i won't be blogging much until exams are over....

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yes yes... title says it all... I'm really really bored.... i wish the hols are shorter... hmm... i rather have shorter holidays but more holidays... hmmm.. sounds weird... okay... i meant shorter duration but higher frequency..... meaning instead of one 6 weeks holiday.. i rather take two 3 weeks holiday... okay... but i don't think it's that effective because our school terms would be even weirder if we divide the holidays up into so many parts... okay.. I'm rambling again.... blah blah... now back to topic... yesterday.. meaning on Saturday... we had piano lessons.. (duh!) and yay!!! piano teacher gave us children's day presents!!! (okay.. I'm still a kid at heart...) yepps.. we got marshmallows... mashy mashy marshmallows!!! fluffy puffy wuffy marshmallows!!!! hahahahaha!!!! okay... I'm not a big fan of marshmallows... it's just fun being a 'kid' and receiving presents!!! yepps.. and later mx came over and we had a good time talking and eating marshmallows.... oh.. and one more thing.. grandma's in hospital... (yes.. our grandma... dad's side...) from what i heard from my dad... she couldn't walk so they brought her to the hospital for some check up.. and the doctor suspects that she had stroke or something.. so they decided to let her stay in the hospital for some scans and further observations... sigh.. i don't like hospitals.... it smells funny... and it feels funny... even the coffee from the machines tastes funny.... and i kind of dislike the wards.. because they are always dark and dreary... and the air feels dead because they didn't open the windows.... *shudders* i don't know why... but i like it bright and cheery... i like opening the curtains in my room all the time.. except for at night because flying ants will keep flying in and in the afternoons when the sun is blazing hot and threatening roast me alive when i lie on the bed to read.... hahahaha.. okay.. i guess it's enough rambling for today....

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