cried for the first time in a very long time today....

stress....
pain...
discomfort...
sadness...
frustration....
awkwardness....
silence....
guilt....
loneliness...
disappointment....

all these negative feelings just.... burst out of their container suddenly....

cried, walked, talked, glared at the fb people when they stared....

really really tired.... seriously need a break from all these....

need to clear up stuffs in my head....

sigh....

okay... for now... sleep... tomorrow still need to chiong tutorial and report....

Labels: stress

well... a hectic week as usual... rehearsals galore... and the concert was a success i think... so i met new friends... had surprises from old friends... alot happened... it's just too much for my brain to process now... argh.... stress level is at 120%.... a few reports due in week 4.... shit.. haven't started at all due to rehearsals..... project due in week 5... more reports due on week 5... presentation in week 7... chamber orchestra on december 4th... STRESSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!

I want 48 hours a day....

RAWR!!!!! damn stress lah....

I didn't even have time to catch bleach, faiy tail and fma this week....

had a rather long talk with meiz... love you meiz... *hugs* and JIA YOU FOR YOUR REMAINING PAPERS!!!!!

and i miss zx and natoz... wish i could talk to them now!!!!! but they are going to start A lvls soon... JIA YOU FOR YOUR A LEVELS MY DARLINGS!!!!

ps: it is week 3 now.. so week 4 is like next monday... i'm so dead.... i need more sleep... really...

Labels: stress, strings concert

okay.. I'm stressed... i have like pimples sprouting on my face.. and i am extremely short/bad/quick tempered.... and i also have this urge to find nice dark corner, cover myself with a blanket in that nice corner, plug in my headphones, and listen to music..... and i also feel like wearing black clothes and just be emo/Gothic or something... it's just.. yeah.. i want to be all dull and dreary and hopefully people won't disturb me... anyway... went to the temple to pray today.. and i dropped my joss sticks... is it a bad sign? my sister was like: i have never seen anyone drop their joss sticks before... and i was like thinking: omg! a bad omen!!! but then again... isn't it suppose to be joss sticks break=bad omen? okay.. i really don't know lah.... forget it.. let's just try to cheer up and get into fan girl mode.... inuyasha!!!


the snow inuyasha looks... erm... so real... hahaha...

Labels: joss sticks, stress

whew... it's nearing the end of the week (finally!) and i'm damn tired this week due to late nights on msn, early mornings to school, phchem book project, reports etc.. not to mention.. there is still com skills project, micro A website, and more reports... *shudder* wish that hols would come faster... and semester exams are in 1 month!!!! better start studying now!!!
and with all the workload.. i don't seem to have much time for cca anymore... the last time i touched the piano was wednesday... and the duet piece for piano is still... not progressing... and for violin.. at least there is some accomplishment... we finished the 3rd violin part for the waltz already!!! haha.. so now starting on the 2nd violin part.. and also learning how to play long long ago... and it was a long long time ago since i touched the violin too.. erm.. i think the last time was monday... haha.. okay.. so i really can't wait for friday night... so i can happily play the piano and violin as much as i want... hope the neighbours don't mind... yay! yay! it's gonna be the weekends soon!!! hold on...

Labels: projects, stress

okay.. this post is for yesterday... er... had school.. haha..(duh!) and sat train to kallang.. and the bus at kallang was like super crowded.... and it stops at every stop.. plus there is traffic jam... i think i won't be sitting train home by kallang anymore... it's more time consuming... but the only nice part is that the bus drops me off right in front of my house... haha... i lazy to walk lah... sometimes carry alot of things then very tired... so when i was home... i played scales... and the exam pieces(which don't seem to be improving) then went to practice the violin.. when i was practising halfway.. mx came over.. so we stared talking and everything... so didn't finish practising in the end... so dumb right? lol... and the performance is postponed to september... which is good... sort of.. because now have more time to practice... yepps... i've signed up for the performance... haiz.. feeling stressed ready... there's so many things to do.. microA project, phchem book thingy, weekly reports... etc... i have to start managing my time i guess... and semester exams are in august... which is like.. next month... i'm sooo dead...

Labels: bus, projects, SO, stress, trains