this is a really great holiday... because of 10 main reasons:
1. it's the holidays!!! (like duh)
2. i can go for more cca!! monday, wednesday, thursday!!!
3. i can finally practice the piano!!
4. i can use the laptop to erhem... read/ watch my favourite manga/ anime...
5. i can slack at home...
6. i can read some books!!!
7. i can finally eat home cooked food!
8. i can sleep late and wake up late!!!
9. i can slowly pack my notes and study for common test.
10. shit! i haven't even started!

yes.. i'm that bad... my notes are neatly on my table.. okay.. not so neat.. in untidy stacks more of... kind of like some abstract installation art... i think they already have a layer of dust on them.. gah.. what kind of holiday is this... it's like i am a 2 week (study) break... kind of thing... stupid holiday... argh! wait.. not holiday's fault.. it's mine... this is how i wasted/ am going to waste this week:

monday: packed room... cca...
tuesday: cousin outing
wednesday: packed notes... cca...
thursday: slacked in morning... cca... went grandma's house...
friday: family outing because my father took leave...
saturday: piano lessons/ family time
sunday: visit grandparents

sigh! i really don't know lah... i even rejected zx's offer to study with her at tampines library.. (sorry zx!!) but i really really find it hard to study this holidays.. firstly... i don't have the mood for it.. secondly... i don't know why i suddenly have so much family activities... thirdly, performance coming really soon.. so i'm more busy with cca... argh!!! i really envy people with no cca... they have so much more extra time!!! but at the same time.. they have no life... i rather have less time and still have a life though... hurray!! i love strings... although the room is always too cold.. and my neck and shoulders are always stiff after practice... but.. it just makes me happy after it all... i dunno... but it just feels like family.... that homely feeling that has been missing for a long time... alot of stuff happened to my family lately... there was that stupid knife incident... and my mum wanted to send my sisters to a girls home and many other rubbish things... yeah... sounds damn drama if you ask me... maybe that's why my parents are working extra hard to try to communicate/ bond more with us... haha.. i guess.. my biggest problem is that when i'm home i look at the laptop screen more than my parents/ sisters... but the thing is.... my sisters would quarrel with each other and my parents would also start screaming at them/ each other... i guess... any normal human would prefer to hide in their room and watch anime instead of getting caught in the middle of the war zone... i may sound selfish but i don't want to get involved in their stupid, silly, small problems... because their small problems have a tendency to erm.. inflate into big problems... and there would be the screaming.. the confrontation.. the crying... and the not talking to each other... my sisters are damn lucky... if it was 10 years ago it would be the screaming, the confrontation, the caning, the crying in bed for the whole night... they are just damn lucky that my parents don't cane their kids anymore... but sometimes i feel that they deserve to have to sense beaten into them... they really quarrel over the dumbest things... okay.. it's pretty late now.. i'll blog another day...